Changes


I spent so long writing about my pain, loss, and sadness when it changed I just stopped writing. I’m not sure I can write about the happy this. Yes I have happy times, happy memories, even happy days. But how to express is is still new to me. I understand it’s cruel sibling, understand it so well but this new emotion, new feelings are foreign to me that I am still surprised by it. I have cried in joy, cried just because I wasn’t sad, laughed at pain from the past, and cried when that pain was gone. It has sustained me when all else failed and taught me so much. I feel almost guilty leaving it behind as it assures me I will be back. True, I may be but this is now my time, my time for some joy and happiness. My time to break all masks and just be free, be me. The real me.

– Chas Harold

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Unmasking


I cry her tears
To hide her pain
I mask my fears
Projecting societies shame

She lives in me
A prisoner of no crime
Almost free
Soon it will be time

I can rest at last
For she will be free
Her journey just starting
Pride and revelry

Some will hate her
But please understand
I was always just an act
While she learned to stand

My show has run it’s course
I will not jump the shark
Her debut has come at last
In this world, she will make her mark

– Chas Harold

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Phoenix Love


Of you, I remember
Lavender filled the air
Our first date
I washed your hair.

I remember your body
A taste from head to toe
Glistening with oil
As you begged me not to go.

I remember your smile
Madness and mischief in your eyes
Those pleasures we promised
Under darkened skies.

Now we need to remember
Go back to that start
We’re not the same people
But we carry their same heart.

– Chas Harold

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Transgender Visibility Day 2018


Posted March 31, 2018 to my Facebook page…

I have never publicly made a big deal about my sex or my gender, as what I am isn’t up for debate. My biological make up is what it is and no one and nothing will ever change that. If you don’t know I’m not male maybe you need to ask yourself how much you really know about me.

But all that said, today is Transgender Visibility Day, and it’s important for people to understand that transgender women and men aren’t just the dramatized images commonly projected and abused by popular media they are people you know and claim to love. They are your neighbors, classmates, friends, and family whether you realize it or not. You cross paths with a transgender, non-binary, or genderfluid person almost every day without even knowing it.

Because of this invisibility, you and others, including our very government, make critical judgments and decisions effecting and targeting the livelihoods of transgender, non-binary, or genderfluid people, often without even the basic understanding that “transgender” isn’t a noun.

So, as this day comes to an end take the time to think about how you judge and treats other. Rethink your preconceived thoughts about people you do not know and let everyone live their lives in a way that makes then happy whether it is how you would live or not.

– Chas Harold

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Howling


Though we howl in sadness now,
the time for the wild rumpus will come back,
and we will once again howl for glory and pleasure.
 
Remembering this and waiting is the hard part.
– Chas Harold
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True Friends


“True Friends”
By Chas Harold
Based on “True” by Spandau Ballet

(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)
(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)

So true
Funny how it seems
Some are on time, carrying their toys and creams
Taking coats and pouring drinks
Sharing our love and our lust
This is true fun

My closest friends and lovers
Have all come back again
Talking and touching as our clothes fall away
Oh, I want this night to begin

(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)
I know this lust is true
(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)
I know this lust is true

With a dick in my hand and her wife’s cum on my tongue
A blowjob for me as I watch the fun
Fucking friends (All night long)
Sharing our love and our lust
This is true fun

Looking around at my friends
As they share more than time
We’re giving our all and taking the same
Oh, I want them all to my own

(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)
I know this lust is true
(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)
I know this lust is true

My closest friends and lovers
Have all come back again
Talking and touching as our clothes fall away
Oh, I’m sure we’ll do this again

(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)
I know this lust is true
(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)
I know this lust is true

This lust is true

(This lust is a-true-oo)
(This lust is a-true-oo-oo)

I know, I know, I know this lust is true
(This lust is a-true-oo)
(This lust is a-true-oo-oo)

(This lust is a-true-oo)
(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)
(This lust is a true-oo-oo)
I know this lust is true
(This lust is a-true-oo)
(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)
(This lust is a true-oo-oo)
Know this lust is true
(This lust is a-true-oo)
(Ha-ha-ha, ha-ah-hi)
(This lust is a-true-oo-oo)
(Know this lust is true)
I know, I know, I know this lust is true

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He Left Again


The invitation was sent
a party for two

Spent my time getting ready
a hot bath in a deep tub

I was all in red and he wore black
he kissed my tear stained cheek

The gentleness of his kiss
his painful apology whispered

You’re not on my dance card
I can’t have you

The red water drained away
again I was left alone

– Chas Harold

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